Kitchen check) Move! Watch as I lay, watch me close my eyes! To the dieing inside/ your good intentions (are now disowned 2X) fuck you/ as you inhale that cancer so long/ you will see what will be of me, with truth comes your lies/..lies/ watch as I lay / watch me close my eyes/ to the dieing inside/ you our now (disowned 7X)
(Cheated from the heart) My heart ponders/ there is only a lost soul/ this dark days pass by so slow/ forever was something but now is (nothing at all 2x) but now I see the kiss of him and so much more! And my mind is closing in..and everyday I watch you betray me/ a picture is engraved in my heart of you letting go/ now everyday I watch you betrayed me/ I dont know how/ My heart ponders/ there is only a lost soul/ this dark days pass by slow/ Its been so many years/ I still dont sleep and I still dont dream/ now now now/ no-one lays next to me/ not a soul lays next to me/ no one lays next to me ( repeat)
(suicide note) blood flow from my veins. i can't stop the pain. I found my life so far away. let my fate fade away. with all my lies. from above let my body fall. no choice. only the path of death. so many cuts. i have to watch the blood flow. like a running tear. am i this evil place. it drops, drops, over and over. the smell fills the air. no mother stay out, father go away, leave me please with all my lies, betrayals all my life. the knife will cure my pain, let it take me away. shed my blood, shed my tears, shed my blood. the mirror cracks are before me, showing me imperfection all my life looking for reasons/ you could kill me/ i could kill you/
(She wrote me) My passions burns inside of you / so much it hurts./Dwelling inside of you/ it burns/ you embrace me, if you lust me/ I love you/ I love you/ if you embrace me I love you/ Soft spoken words of an angel, but it appears my actions speak the truth/ that I am tearing the wings of angel./ making here memories mine/ whispering this little lies, little lies/ You did this to be there is no turning back/ she wrote me/ lust me again/ lust me again/ murderer/murderer/ of innocence/ murder of innocence/
(A fathers gift) bleeding through the pain
Self-suffering/ the silence stains the suffering/ alone in this darkness/ all I have is a multitude of years and tears/: that never seem to be in motion/ bleeding through this pain/ tears fall on my face of what I used to be/ does this pain every cease away/ alone trapped in neglect/ ( a fathers gift of self-suffering) fusing blood stains and razor blades/ razor blades all I have is uttering tears and silent good byes/ you did this/ bleeding though/ self-suffering/ the silence stains the suffering/alone in this darkness/ does this pain every cease away?/ you did this to me/ all I see is you .you
{Her confessions}
when moments fuse with seconds/ all i see is a double Helix/ I'm dancing a romaic tune with devil uttering bloddly marry to myself/ There is a blcaken mirror at every eve of life/ reflecting this misrey/ these are my confessions/ the words printed faintly in black and white should of been (red)/ I would scrape this darkness away if my hands were not (bond) to his/ [knotted tightly between darkness and a lost ligh]t/ My confessions/ you can sign my life away with a blink of an eye but, he already did (with his fist) he sign it death/ Im not bonded to him, i am bonded to myself..
(My place)
As my world is fallign apart the blood has spilled from the cracks feeling this worlds mind with feelings of sorrow/ (all is clear , all is rotting away)/ With this pain the always remians, all is clear all is rotting away/ as I descend this tears i wipe them away fro better day/ river fill yuor void, fill yourself with my tears/ all is cleer , all is rotting away/ rotting away!/ all is clear all is rottign away
